The future: so far and yet so close

It has been a long crazy week here in Nicaragua. Although I would love to share every last detail with you, I only have time for the big news.

The last time I posted, I updated you on my interview situation. The interview I was planning on did not take place. That interview was re-scheduled for Wednesday night. It turns out the miscommunication was likely because the headmaster got a new secretary and her email account was having some issues. I finally got to talk to the headmaster on Wednesday night for an Hour and 10 minutes! I thank all of you who prayed for this interview. It went very well. I think I was able to communicate clearly and prepare good questions. I was left with a feeling of hope because the Headmaster made it sound like my coming is very likely. This was very exciting for me to hear. I didn't get much sleep that night. The next day at school I would day dream about Thailand and having my own classroom.

However, this excitement about Thailand did not stop my desire to hear back from SPH, the school in Indonesia. It scared me to think that I would hear back from ICS Bangkok in less than a week and still have no contact from Indonesia. Well, those thoughts didn't last long because Thursday night I received an email from Indonesia, basically telling me that they want me to come and that a contract would be sent out soon. WHAT!!! I couldn't believe it. Was this really happening? A day after I was pumped about Thailand? Now I was all pumped about Indonesia. I was pulling at my hair one minute and bouncing around the room the next. I read that email like 6 times. No joke. How would I ever be able to make a decision about this? That is what was killing me.

I crawled into bed that night and did my nightly devotions. I have this little stand near my bed that says "His Plans For You." In this stand are little picture cards with a Bible verse on one side and a reflection of the verse on the other side. Every night I take one out and read it. It has been such a little blessing because it constantly reminds me that I am in God's hands. Thank-you Dad for the Christmas present! Anyways, on Thursday night the verse was this: "Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this..." Psalm 37:45. On the back of the card I read this sentence: "He'll take you where he wants you to go." I told myself that over and over as I drifted off to sleep. I love it when God sends us his assurance in unique ways.

So this is where I am at. Although I do not have the final word from Thailand, I have a feeling that within the next week I will be making a big decision. I will be praying like crazy for a peaceful heart and a clear understanding of where God wants me to teach after I graduate. Please pray that God will guide the hearts of the schools and myself as we consider where God is leading me. Please also pray that my focus and efforts in student teaching will not be effected by this decision making process.